On Valentine's day 2014 I told my husband that he and I would be expecting our first child in October 2014. We are thrilled. I have yet to see a doctor yet because of the crappy town I live in, we only have two doctors and one of them is not who I would considered a good doctor. So, I have to wait to see the other one. Thankfully, the month of waiting it almost over and we will be going on the 17th. We are very excited and cannot wait to see the little peanut.
I am currently 7 weeks and 6 days pregnant according to all the due date calculators I found on Google. I will find out how far along I really am when I see the doctor. As of right now, pregnancy is not agreeing with me. I am sick pretty much all day. My stomach hurts all day and I feel as though I have been on a roller coaster. Food is not really appealing and the foods that are appealing are horrible for me. I can't keep much down, which sucks.
My mood has been a pain as well. I feel as though I am about to scream all the time. It is awful. I feel horrible for my husband. He is waiting on me hand and foot when he is home and I find stupid crap to bitch about. Poor guy. I barely sleep through the night because I either feel sick or I have to pee. It SUCKS.
I have been pregnant twice before and those ended in miscarriage, sadly. We stopped trying for awhile and I spent over a year not pregnant or getting pregnant which was nice. I needed the break for my body and mind. However, I did tell my husband that if this pregnancy ends in miscarriage as well, then I am 3 for 3 and I am done with getting pregnant. I do not understand how women do this to their bodies and their minds. It could drive a person crazy. I do not feel like myself. I want so badly to be happy about being pregnant and be able to experience all the happy stuff that women seem to go through but for some reason, my body is not happy right now. I know it will get better over time and obviously will be amazing once we have a child but right now, that light at the end of the tunnel is hard to see.
I am staying positive though.
