Ugh. I am awful at keeping up with these. FAIL.

Today is a milestone though so I figured I would update my blog on what has been going on.

I am 27 weeks pregnant as of today! Cannot believe our daughter will be here in 12 weeks (even though I think it's more like 11). Josh and I could not be happier but we are waiting patiently to meet our little girl. Yup! We are having A GIRL!!!! We are naming her Harper Jo-Mae. We got a lot of "ooh I like that name" and a lot of "why THAT name?" LOL.

Well, Harper was a name we had years ago and it is the only one that stuck considering we went through tons and tons of girl names, we didn't like any of them as much as Harper. Jo came from my grandma, her initials were JKO and I always thought Jo was cute, so yeah. Mae is the name of Josh's grandma on his dad's side and great grandma's name on his mom's side. We decided to hyphen it because Harper Jo would end up looking like her first name and I didn't want that. So, Jo-Mae is what looks and sounded best to us.

Cravings this time around include: spicy stuff, chocolate, sweet tea, chicken sandwiches, and milk.
*It is really funny because normally I do not like sweet things but apparently while pregnant I do. Also, in the beginning ANYTHING with chicken made me sick, not anymore. So bizarre. Haha.

Symptoms as of now: lower back pain, trouble sleeping - but always tired, light cramping, and a few other nasty things I would rather not share. You're welcome!

So, yup. Harper is due October 21st which is only 3 months away which is so close. We have only received a few things from friends/family which is slightly disappointing because so many people asked for us to make a registry yet not many people seem to stick to what they say. Oh well.

Things we have for her so far though(that we bought):
16 bottles (different sizes)
Bottle cleaner brush
Blankets (lost count)
Diaper bag (thanks to the hubby!)
Booties
Onesies (tons and tons)
Clothes (NB-18 months)
3 pairs of shoes
Bibs
Nursery decor
Pac n play
High chair
Stroller
Walker
Activity set
Swing/Glider
Breast pump
.......Etc. I know there is more but I cannot think of things. Haha.

Things we have received from friends/family:
Bassinet
Diapers (two boxes of size 1 so far)
Personalized car seat cover
Personalized (and remade) stroller/car seat
Personalized baby blanket
(Apparently getting a rocking chair, a camera system, and a crib but haven't gotten it yet)

Josh and I are not expecting anything from anyone. We are thankful for the things we are getting but we are aware that we are doing everything pretty much alone.

Very exciting!!!! Only 90 days left!!!!

A moment of truth

On Valentine's day 2014 I told my husband that he and I would be expecting our first child in October 2014. We are thrilled. I have yet to see a doctor yet because of the crappy town I live in, we only have two doctors and one of them is not who I would considered a good doctor. So, I have to wait to see the other one. Thankfully, the month of waiting it almost over and we will be going on the 17th. We are very excited and cannot wait to see the little peanut.

I am currently 7 weeks and 6 days pregnant according to all the due date calculators I found on Google. I will find out how far along I really am when I see the doctor. As of right now, pregnancy is not agreeing with me. I am sick pretty much all day. My stomach hurts all day and I feel as though I have been on a roller coaster. Food is not really appealing and the foods that are appealing are horrible for me. I can't keep much down, which sucks.

My mood has been a pain as well. I feel as though I am about to scream all the time. It is awful. I feel horrible for my husband. He is waiting on me hand and foot when he is home and I find stupid crap to bitch about. Poor guy. I barely sleep through the night because I either feel sick or I have to pee. It SUCKS.

I have been pregnant twice before and those ended in miscarriage, sadly. We stopped trying for awhile and I spent over a year not pregnant or getting pregnant which was nice. I needed the break for my body and mind. However, I did tell my husband that if this pregnancy ends in miscarriage as well, then I am 3 for 3 and I am done with getting pregnant. I do not understand how women do this to their bodies and their minds. It could drive a person crazy. I do not feel like myself. I want so badly to be happy about being pregnant and be able to experience all the happy stuff that women seem to go through but for some reason, my body is not happy right now. I know it will get better over time and obviously will be amazing once we have a child but right now, that light at the end of the tunnel is hard to see.

I am staying positive though.

Too early for this shit

If you think I'm spoiled rotten, you're correct...I am. But don't even think about throwing it in my face like it's a bad thing or something I should feel guilty about. Just because you made fucked up choices in your life and allowed men to walk all over you, doesnt give you the right to get on my ass for being smart. I love my life and appreciate everything I've been given. You have a problem with how I live, feel free to walk out of my life and close the door. I don't chase people. Choice is yours.